Crummy Week

Its been a terrible week for me. At least from my perspective. I'm struggling with trusting God and that he wants the best for my life. I'm struggling with fear, and worry. I'm struggling physically. I've been sick since September on and off with cold, and various other things. This past weekend I contracted a really bad eye infection and then on top of that I received another cold this week. So many times I have just felt like giving up. Throwing in the towel. I have thrown up my hands a few times and cried out to God and asked him "WHY??". Frustration has set in, and I hurt those around me because of my bad attitude and negativity.
I happened to open this little devotional today...not the page it should be for today, but for one earlier and I started to read it. It talks about how God is good, but life can really suck sometimes, physcially, emotionally, spritually. You name it, it's gonna suck. This line really caught me..."Pain always tries to shrink my world to the immediate, but faith lifts my eyes to see the big picture. In spite of the pain."
I turned to Pslam 91:
" He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
If you make the Most High your dwelling— even the LORD, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

If you think of it, please keep me in your prayers this week. That God would heal my eye, that he would heal my heart and the fear and worry that I have.